About the Peddler

(Written some 6 years ago or so.)

This is everything and more in a capsule.

I’m fond of white and purity
Blue is my value, but I’m a collector
Of white, pink, perfume, angels, shoes, earrings, interior designs, pictures, old pictures, green and everything in between
Tokens of love, bright ideas, magazines, letters, films, reality shows and gadgets

I’m attracted to the moon and heavenly skies… and the texture of carpets
I love the beach, landscapes, towers, weekends, road trips, animals,
I love traveling, my camera, videos, giving and receiving gifts.
I love to give surprises and capture the awe of the moment in my heart
It’s sad that nothing can totally surprise me
It’s sad that not one horror movie can scare me
I’m fond of kids and innocence
I’m fond of burping and I sneeze softly
I’m fond of intellectual and stimulating conversations
I’m fond of goblins, fairies and gypsies

I used to be a fighter and an advocator
I used to have every positive energy in this world
I used to have fabulous hair and skin… and a raw attitude
I used to love iguanas and car racing
I used to love speech writing, poetry and elocutions
I used to be part of an all-male band, the drummer
I used to be terrible in playing the guitar… Actually, I still am.
I used to love getting drunk and silly
I used to love law and politics

I was the controlled child
Sheltered by everything I asked for
Constrained by expectations
My adolescence is a plethora of what I can and cannot remember
I was a rebel, I was reborn
I’ve given birth to unconditional love for Joyce

I believe…
Karma exists
Hearts talk
There’s communication in silence
Opportunity knocks very softly
That palaces and diamonds can be gone in a second, but
The responsible leads and prospers
In family, but unquenchable relatives are not
Freedom is a gift and duty
It’s time to take away the pork barrel from the pigs
A person’s good character cannot be destroyed by an attack to your reputation
True love is steadfast
Compromise keeps peace but breeds mediocrity
That we get hurt so we may not hurt others the way we were hurt
There is still hope in this world

I am…
Animated.
An Aquarian whose nightmare is composed of murky waters
A glam ghost and the biggest dork
I used to be the ultimate drama queen
A ghetto queen, a jack for all trades
A player of basketball, billiards, Counterstrike
And anything that women are supposed to be poor at
A revival, a reinvention, a rarity, a simplicity and complexity

I like and hate Britney Spears and pop culture
I like and hate attention
I like and hate the night
I like and hate my bratinella and mood swing trips
I like and hate spontaneity

I’m crazy and beautiful
I love to Love and grateful to be Loved.
I can spell fashion
I fancy designer clothes
My wardrobe is mixed flea market knockouts and runway winners
My role is restrictive big sister and the biggest baby.
My purpose is to spread Love until everyone is infected,
Sadly, most people do not accept the overwhelming power of it

I have been a man, a superwoman, a pretender
A teacher of forgiveness and humility -two very difficult subjects to teach
An actor of staged feelings and fears
I have been a bird seeking homage
And found homage in the strength of my own loneliness
I’ve been a rat that has been through the sewerage
And now trying to survive a life of without again

I’m learned.
Of candor, I’m a complete tabula rasa
I have more battles to conquer.

My life is erratic
I miss my fantasies and daydreams
I miss my job as a poet
I miss my childhood exuberance
I miss not having a care in the world

Love, dance, songs,
Hitting my battered and blooded set with amateur sticks
Take me to another dimension
Dancing is my best bud.
Bubba is my best friend and partner in life
I’ve tried and cared for many
But only loved one man

I am a lover of food.
I have my own concoctions you can’t resist
-Magellan needed to discover
I love the heat of the sun on my skin
And the wind blowing my hair
I love wild laughter.
I love making adventures out of the routine
I love the lowest and highest points of my life.

I can be a painter.
I can be your phoenix and heal your wounds
I can see the most beautiful things in people
I can be your dream come true.
I can be your only certainty

I am designed by God and weaved with values.
I can take honesty like water in my pipelines.
An avid fan of frankness but not brutality

Totally despise LIES
I definitely love the truth.

I want to build a sandcastle for two
I want to build gardens of sunrise and sunsets
I want to build my confidence in dancing again…

I move to the beat of hip-hop.
I move to the beat of life.
I move to the beat of love.

I’m every inch human.

++ Cushee ++